Yesterday I gave birth to a beautiful baby girl. As they placed her in my arms I am overwhelmed with so many emotions. Her beauty takes a hold of me and I can’t take my eyes off of her. She is perfect! I closed my eyes for a split second thanking God for this beautiful blessing only to open them up and she is no longer in my arms, but standing in front of me as a beautiful young women on her senior night of high school. Why did I blink? Why did I close my eyes for that split second? A whole new set of emotions have come crashing over me as I stare once again at this beautiful girl.
You always have it in the back of your mind that one day they will be grown and no longer need you like they once did, but why did that time have to come so soon. The saying “the days are long but the years are short” are every bit true. There will be times where you just want to jump to the next chapter but hold on to the good, bad, and ugly moment because one day you will long for them again.
I may not be ready for this next chapter in Saraya’s life but I will be grasping and holding on to every moment I get to spend with her before she decides to spread here wings even farther and adventure off into her own new world.
Being a mother is learning about the strengths you didn’t know you had… And dealing with fears you didn’t know existed.